10 days nalang!

CHRISTMAS 2011! ♥

Love is still the greatest cure the world has ever known - no matter what the problem. ~the treasure of a friend

sayaaaaaa lang. ;D

sayaaaaa!

well, ngayon lang ulit naka pag BLOG. :)

it's been a crazy september so far! ^_^
Grabeh, hell weeks dahil nag start ako sa training last week and it was night shift. well, new experiences. sayaaaa! sobraaaaaaang saya namin! ayun, super enjoying kahit parang super super antok as in akooo after late lunch. XD sayaaaa kasi may mga becky and mostly naman kami girls. may dalawang BIG BOYS. haha

i feel really blessed that all this things starts smooth and i'm being ready for new changes dahil final week na and kinausap kami kahapon ni BOSS, graduation na sa friday and next week hopefully CONTRACT SIGNING.

WOW. THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERYTHING! kailangang mag focus. mag sipag and tiyaga. for papa, mama and lola. now na hindi namin nakaka chat si tito. . and hopefully in years from now, ung CANADA ko is yun. when the right time comes and in God's perfect time. ENJOYING LIFE TO THE FULLEST! ♥


LoveLoveLove! ;)

*sorry Pastora di ako nakadaan sayooo. and last day namin , so may uber bonding churva naman daw. hihi

mcdonald's love. ♥

a double hot fudge sundae, a double caramel sundae, and a hot fudge hot caramel duo!!!! WOW.

share ko lang toh. :))

my inspiration. :) 

like her i wanna be - a supergirl! ♥

iamsuperbianca.com

i love you baby!

how i so effing dream that i have this. ;)

Embracing life as it is.

Life has been so extraordinary to be ungrateful.

“When things are good, say good things. When things are bad, say twice as many good things.”


“Stop and appreciate what you have today. Look at what you have with wider eyes, maybe with more compassion and more gratitude for the things that you do have and not the things you don’t have.”


honesty is the foundation of trust and trust is the foundation of love.


“Well, it seems to me that the best relationships—the ones that last—are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before; like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.”

 
                                       this is Atty. Fortun's photography. super ganda! nakaka inspire!!!!

kamukha ko ata. haha :) 

rock on! cute ni baby! :))

the coins and the rings. ;)

after an hour of waiting! here they are. ^_^ the newly weds. ♥

the bride's gown. super likeeeeeeee! 

cute couple! :)

so cute. ;D

sweeeetssss. ;p

WOW. NAIINSPIRE AKO TUMINGIN NG MGA WEDDINGSSSSSS! CHAR LANG! I WANT MY OWN WEDDING! ♥♥♥

Thank You.

What you really want is happiness. You might believe that a fat bank account will get you there, but that's false. Happy people are happy rich or poor, unhappy people are unhappy rich or poor. Money simply masks your real being by giving you activities to occupy your mind. Don't fool yourself, recession or not, your true wealth comes from your heart and is always only there.

-Happiness is a choice. I chose to be happy and i'm so happy. kahit na maraming haters at sobraaang :( nakakalungkot nalang ee. pambihira. dami talagang kontrabida.  pero i'm not giving up that easily.. marami pa kong dreams. at papatunayan ko sa sarili ko. SA KANILANG LAHAT. na kaya ko.

spontaneous. out of the box and free spirited.

lapit na pala birthday ko. haha XD

Mag isa na naman. ;p

.........

Perhaps, we’re all given hardship, pain and suffering to help us know who we are, who we are meant to be. We are not born to feel hurt but to be strong individuals capable of love no matter the odds are. These past few days, I’ve realized who I am, and who I am not. I am not a quitter, I am not a failure and I am not weak. The beat of my heart is as strong as my love for mankind. People may drag me down, pull out all my strength and tell me that I’m nothing but at the end of the day, it still my choice to prove them wrong. 

The more I suffer, the stronger I feel. The more they try to take away my pride, the more confident I am that I can bounce back. The more I cry, the more I am willing to give out the sweetest smile my lips can produce. And the more I feel hate and pain, the more I want to share love.

I am thankful that through these rough times, I learned that even though my head still need some growing up, my heart sees what it needs to see. And the closer I become to every beat of it that the more people feed my head with lies, the truth doesn’t hurt anymore because my heart understands, it will always understand.

It is easy to forget how perfectly life works out. When you are down, you believe that things never work in your favour. But if you look back now, you can see that, in many cases things actually happened exactly the way they needed to.

There’s a thin line between being a strong person and acting strong. And for the past few days I’ve been the latter. Out of focus, uninspired, too much negativity cluttering my mind and suddenly the world seems to be pulling me down. No, I’m pulling myself down. Honestly, I don’t know how to face sadness. It became a stranger to me and I’m back to square one trying to figure out how I get all happy and smiley again. I know I can do this. I’m losing myself in the process. I want to escape this sadness because it is starting to wrap it’s arms around me. And the more I stay in this place, the more lose I become. I’m scared. I’m scared of not being strong or not happy. 

I’m scared.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. 

2nd time

ouch. ang sakit sa bangs. nawaln ako ng fone at bag. huhuhuhhu
andun pera ko. pantreat ko sa kanila 2k un. XD gosh. huhuhuhuhuhu

MINE. ♥

You were in college working part time waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was a flight risk with a fear of falling
Wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts

I say can you believe it?
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I could see it
Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take
Yes, yes, this is what I thought about

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/mine-lyrics.html )
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.
As everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye
'Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone

You said I remember how we felt sitting by the water
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine

Hold on, make it last
Hold on, never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
We're gonna make it now
I can see it
I can see it now

The man meant for you is the man who’ll love you even when there’s no more reason to love you.

WHO SAYS

You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

[Verse 2]
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

[Bridge]
Who says you’re not star potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, who said

[Chorus]

Who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
trust me
That's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty
Who says you're not beautiful
Who says


-hay. hilong hilo. parang ayoko pumasok. hahahaha nahihilo talaga ko. di ko alam gagawin ko. XD

back to school!

i went back to my alma mater, the ateneo de manila university, for one reason.. manangs!!!!



welcome to manangs. an institution in the ateneo campus, as much as the blue eagle gym or the gonzaga, kostka, or faura building. this was my most favorite place to eat at when i was a student!!!! alamat ang manangs. located by the college covered courts and right beside the tennis court, manangs is the most delicious, most laid back, most home-y place to eat in when in ateneo.



they are famous for their breaded porkchop! it goes perfectly with papa banana ketchup! and i just recently discovered they now serve binagoongan! super yummy too!



my personal favorite is the liempo. to. die. for!!!! i'm a big liempo person and the manangs liempo is one of the best i've ever had. haha! i also tried their adobo i must say its a winner too!



eating at manangs is happiness! if you ever find yourself inside the campus, you must eat here. :) i felt like i was transported back into time and with my white sando, jeans, and flats get up, i felt like i fit right in! like i was a student all over again! hmm.. pwedeeee!



took the chance to check out the new buildings in the campus and i must say the campus looks sooo different! since i graduated, the campus has changed so much! there's a huge cafeteria by the jg-som building, and there are landscaped gardens and sculptures nicely placed around the campus!

i was so impressed to see the mvp center which used to be where the org building, colayco, used to be! a place for students to hang out in, this building is insanely nice! in fact, the ground floor has a fully functional bookstore (as in they sell all school supplies you will need, they even have a mini mac center, and a whole area for ateneo shirts!) and even a bo's coffee! whaaaat?!

i wanted to visit my favorite professor who i feel changed my life, dr. leovino garcia of the philosophy department, but he wasn't in at the time. i sat in his class a few years ago and even wrote a blogpost about it (click here to read my nerdy thoughts!) and i plan to sit in again sometime. i vow to visit him soon!



going back to school is refreshing and inspiring. i suggest you visit your alma mater once in a while! it makes you feel the idealism, positivity, hopefulness that you felt when you were a student, all over again!

amdg. go ateneo!

08 February 2011

goodbye, y speak.

i never thought i would see the day come that i would have to say goodbye to the show i care so much about. all good things come to an end, yes, its true. and though i am heartbroken that y speak is saying goodbye, at the same time, i am filled with honor and fulfillment to have been part of a show that was an instrument of change. for me, y speak was more than a television show. it was an ideal. an idea. a brand. y speak stood for the empowerment of the youth. hopefully, making every young person who got to watch the show even once, feel that his or her voice matters in society, and that he or she, can do something to make the world a better place.



i will forever hold y speak dear to me because..



y speak was my first ever show on abs-cbn. i was a senior in college. i remember being handpicked by father tito caluag and the management of the show to be put together with top broadcaster karen davila and top tv host ryan agoncillo. i remember the intense pressure with every show ending, that i had to say my final word and assessment, alongside ryan and karen. i remember thinking, "who the heck would want to listen to what a college student would have to say?!" but i watched, listened, and learned from ryan, karen, father caluag, and our whole staff. so much of what i know about hosting, i learned while doing y speak.



y speak was the first show i hosted solo. from being an audience correspondent when we launched on abs-cbn, to being resurrected on studio 23, to being reformatted as a documentary show. y speak was the first show to trust me to host it solo. y speak was the show that gave me the chance to shine and prove my worth. in the six years of the show, i got to do unforgettable one on one interviews that i will forever hold dear to me, including those with jun lozada, gilbert teodoro, chiz escudero, pia cayetano, the dynamic teen company (before they won in cnn), and many, many more.



y speak molded me as a person. it was because of y speak that i discovered my advocacy for the youth. it was because of y speak that i knew i wanted to spend my life doing some form of public service. it was because of y speak that i decided to fight for children's education, why i put together the 'help kids learn project', and how i eventually was appointed to be a child rights supporter for unicef philippines. its free to dream! and y speak helped make my dreams a reality!



i would like to thank those who shared their voice to y speak..



thank you karen davila for even saying yes to hosting y speak on its past midnight airing time on abs-cbn way back in 2004! i remember just shuddering while standing beside you, being at a loss for words, but you were always so generous and giving to the "new kid on the block". i will forever be your fan, you are one of the best journalists the country has even seen!



thank you father tito caluag for seeing the potential in me. i knew off the bat, you were biased because i was from ateneo, just like you. haha! but thank you for seeing past all superficialities, thank you for seeing what's in my mind and in my heart, and thank you for coming up with the idea of this whole show in the first place.



thank you atom araullo for being part of y speak! you often had to rush from tv patrol coverage to taping episodes, but you still always gave so much credibility and life to y speak. your y speak family is so proud of you and we are totally betting you will be the biggest name in news when its time for our generation to shine!



thank you kuya kim atienza for the vibrance and energy and knowledge you lent to our show! even though you were already so big time in the news department, you still always made time for our humble little show. thank you for being our forever "wais speaker" and i will forever be your little sister!



thank you tj manotoc for always being there for y speak! whether it be a forum in manila, a quiz bee for students, an out of town trip, you always made time for y speak, and for that, we love you so much! thank you for showing so much passion for the show!



thank you mo twister for making y speak so exciting! you were in transition then, deciding whether to be a kapamilya or a kapuso, but you still always made time for y speak. i absolutely loved hearing your opinion, whether we agreed or disagreed, and people may say this or that about you, but i say you're one of the coolest, most genuine people around!

thank you to more members of the y speak family for sharing your talent and your thoughts..

bam aquino
patricia evangelista
jc cuadrado
mikee lee
bettina carlos
enchong dee
ricci chan
vince liwanag
sam concepcion
jiggy cruz




and of course, my original partner, to whom i owe so much of what i know in this career of mine, ryan agoncillo. everyone knows how much i miss working with you, but i am so, so, so happy for you and how your career has grown since after y speak! thank you for teaching me how to be a host. before working with you on y speak and even on review night, i knew nothing about hosting. just watching you and talking to you, i learned so much. you are really so good at hosting, and i never told you this to your face, pero napakagaling mong host at idol talaga kita! thank you for being the heart of y speak. it was an honor to have worked with you. :)



thank you so, so much to all the award giving bodies that recognized y speak!

2005 anak tv seal
2006 ustv awards best public affairs show
2006 cmma best tv talk show
2007 anak tv seal
2007 ustv awards best public affairs show
2007 up gandingan best panel discussion
2007 kbp golden dove best public affairs show
2008 anak tv seal
2008 ustv awards best public affairs show
2008 up gandingan best panel discussion
2008 up gandingan best panel discussion host ..my first ever hosting award! thank you!!!!
2008 gawad tanglaw best public affairs show
2008 star awards best public affairs show
2009 anak tv seal
2009 ustv awards best public affaris show
2009 mtrcb awards special citation
2010 anak tv seal
2010 kbp golden dove best public affairs show

thank you from the bottom of all our hearts, for recognizing our efforts to create a quality program that people can learn from and help form their opinion with.. we hold all these awards dear to us!



thank you to everyone who ever became part of the show, without you guys, y speak will not be possible..

thank you noel ferrer, the original executive producer of the show. the concept of y speak was formed as a joke while father caluag and ryan were hanging out one day. it was noel that put it all together and made it all possible. thank you for loving me noel and believing in my talent. thank you for pushing for y speak to be launched!

thank you sir leo katigbak for being so passionate about y speak. so many times our show had no ratings or advertising to boast of, but you believed in what the show stood for and fought for it so much, thank you. that means so much to us who love the show!

thank you mori rodriguez for giving fire to the show. every week you came up with so many ideas, you always thought of things to spice up the show, you always pushed each and every staff member to put a little fire into the show. thank you for loving y speak and for loving me!

thank you mark salamat and ate karen almeida for seeing the show through, from the time you inherited it, you loved it as your own. through going off air to on air again, from weekly to monthly, you never gave up on y speak. and i have you both to thank for that!

thank you for being not just workmates but friends, mae manalac, oxy del rosario, xavier gravides, kathy geronimo, phol, dianne, l.a., m.a., rona, direk elvie, direk arnel..

thank you to every single wonderful member of the y speak family..

may lacar
janice
aice
ryan
yog
bien
ritchel
apols
roy
bonel
eugene
jen
hanah
mike
che
jc
tia pilits
shey
george
rommel
tita becky

thank you calc and the rest of the forumers at superbianca.proboards.com who have documented the yspeak episodes from the start. thank you for all the screencaps i used in this post.

thank you of course to all our bosses who made y speak possible.. sir march, miss lala, sir vince, miss rose, miss dorskie, sir buboy, and ma'am charo.



and of course, the biggest thank you of all goes to every single person who watched y speak, whether religiously or just one episode, to every single person who has been part of our panel, those who have been resource speakers for us, those who have sent in their comments to the show, you all are what y speak is all about. SPEAKING OUT.





thank you to everyone who because of y speak, believe that we young pinoys have a voice in society too. do not stop empowering yourselves.

tayong lahat ang bumubuo ng boses ng kabataan na walang inuurungan.

then now.

ang hirap. ng may inaantay. ng may nililingon. ngayon. di ko alam ang susunod. ngayon ay naiiyak iyak pa ako. gusto ko na talagang iiyak lahat. alam ko kaya ko toh. GOSH. malalampasan namin toh pero sa mga nangyayari ngayon. naghahabol na kami. konting oras na naman, ayan na. di namamalayan tapos na. XD





“The wind blowing through your hair, the warm sun on your face, the cool ground beneath your bare feet, the heavenly rains against your skin, a sunrise, a sunset, a flower, a beautiful song. Simplicity at its best, beauty at its most. Take it in and realize just how wealthy we all are.”


well. i dunno. since last year this hasn't change. and i know i'm not getting any younger. THESIS after ng OJT and blah. blah blah. RAWR.  ........
ewan ko ba. minsan talaga iniisip ko ayoko na. GOSH. it's been 4 years at parang sa tingin ko di ko naman alam kung san talaga ko patungo. alam mo un, ung pakiramdam na gusto mo munang mag isa, mag isip isip sa mga nangyayari sayo ngayon kung gusto mo pa talagang ituloy or what and in the end ito. :| nung first sem naman okay ee, kasi i promised it na ggraduate ako. xempre i want my parents to be proud of me. and i love mama so much. papa as well. sa maling impluwensiya lang ng mga tao sa paligid, gumugulo tlaga utak ko. nag iiba ng takbo ng puso at isip ko. :'( huhu. 


It takes a strong person to say sorry, and an ever stronger person to forgive -Unknown


LOrd GOd tulungan niyo po ako. alam ko naman pong kaya ko. isang taong makakapitan at makakatulong talaga sakin ng husto. i know im being so bitch. im such. all my friends think im perfect but im not. i am really not. i am enjoying my life. i go out a lot. i shout. i scream. being happy and so gay. 


♥ well, love is in the air. again. february && of course valentines is approaching together with our thesis defense. i am graduating. just had pay my account in school. mom, i did it. i love them. supportive. loving. caring. mom, i want the best for you. i'm sorry i make your head aches a lot. im sorryfor being pasaway. i want it to share the whole world  na _____!!!!!!!!!!  




till here. thanks again. ^_^

When a girl is silent, that’s pretty dangerous. She’s either over thinking, tired of waiting, about to blow, lonely, needs a hug, falling apart or crying inside. and most probably all of those above.

      ♥   

sweet strangers.

have you ever experienced a total stranger brightening up your day? :)



the sweet drive thru crew.



one super late night, i was suddenly craving for twister fries and a mcfloat, so i drove thru the 24-hour commonwealth branch of mcdonalds. they had the absolute sweetest drive thru staff! all of them rushed to the window to ask me about all these different things, about when the next pinoy big brother season will be, about sending their regards to boy abunda, about my work schedule, and other random topics! they requested to take my photo, so i asked them if i could take their photo too! they all game-ly posed! :)



the sweet blog comment.



i've always said that the biggest compliment anyone can ever give me is that they read my blog. its because i know they appreciate me not for what i do, or what i may have worn, or who i may be friends with, but because of my thoughts and what's in my head. i am very, very thankful to all of you who read my blog, and to all of you who have been reading my blog since way back when i started.. in 2003! :p



the sweet customers.



my darling alex carbonell, the creative head of all bench fix salons, has been doing my hair for ten years now! cut, color, style, treat, name it, its alex who does it for me. i absolutely love him!!!! i really believe in having a close personal relationship with your hairstylist, someone who can grow with you, someone who can take care of your crowning glory. recently, alex and i experimented with my hair color, and he forwarded me this text, saying many clients come into his salon, studio fix in greenbelt five, asking for what color my hair is, or asking to have their bangs cut! its extremely flattering and humbling to know!



don't be afraid to go out of your way to smile to a stranger, or share an appreciative comment to some random person. sometimes, well actually, a lot of times, a total stranger can make your day! make theirs too. :)










♥ whew. can't sleep and my head. ugh ugh. :||| class tom at 9am. XD hayst. i feel weak. and weaker as days go along. not in church tom added. :(

happy 1-1-11

VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR SA KANYA! :)

hapi hapi new year to everyone and to all my loved ones! :)
SAYO - okay. pahinga ka lang dyan enjoy! basta i love you na lang. :) keep that in your heart. hihihi

alam na un ni Lord!- pinag ppray ko siya. and right now - my top priorities is school, family and myself. haha
aayusin ko muna ulit ang mga bagay bagay sa buhay ko - sarili mo especially. marami pa kong doubts and fears sa sarili ko and now i'm focusing this year - ALL ABOUT MYSELF. gusto ko na maayos ang mga bagay bagay - maliliit lang naman ee. time to be more matured, less mistakes && more smiles. ;)

thank You LORD! this is so rocking! a blast of all the best in my life! :) THANK YOU. i love you! ♥

kasalan pala bukas! :)

first wedding sa church ngayong 2011! ♥

wow. and gaily babess requested the song - "MY DESTINY" for tomorrow. :D :D

hahahahaha. loooove her talaga. and elaine is so damn sad yata. hihi
may isang tao daw na sad kaya siguro naiisip nya un. 1st txt in the morning ko cya. :D :D

thank you po Lord for this day!
devo with mama, kuya, and josh kanina before ito. :)

Goodnight lovess. ♥