Mag isa na naman. ;p

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Perhaps, we’re all given hardship, pain and suffering to help us know who we are, who we are meant to be. We are not born to feel hurt but to be strong individuals capable of love no matter the odds are. These past few days, I’ve realized who I am, and who I am not. I am not a quitter, I am not a failure and I am not weak. The beat of my heart is as strong as my love for mankind. People may drag me down, pull out all my strength and tell me that I’m nothing but at the end of the day, it still my choice to prove them wrong. 

The more I suffer, the stronger I feel. The more they try to take away my pride, the more confident I am that I can bounce back. The more I cry, the more I am willing to give out the sweetest smile my lips can produce. And the more I feel hate and pain, the more I want to share love.

I am thankful that through these rough times, I learned that even though my head still need some growing up, my heart sees what it needs to see. And the closer I become to every beat of it that the more people feed my head with lies, the truth doesn’t hurt anymore because my heart understands, it will always understand.

It is easy to forget how perfectly life works out. When you are down, you believe that things never work in your favour. But if you look back now, you can see that, in many cases things actually happened exactly the way they needed to.

There’s a thin line between being a strong person and acting strong. And for the past few days I’ve been the latter. Out of focus, uninspired, too much negativity cluttering my mind and suddenly the world seems to be pulling me down. No, I’m pulling myself down. Honestly, I don’t know how to face sadness. It became a stranger to me and I’m back to square one trying to figure out how I get all happy and smiley again. I know I can do this. I’m losing myself in the process. I want to escape this sadness because it is starting to wrap it’s arms around me. And the more I stay in this place, the more lose I become. I’m scared. I’m scared of not being strong or not happy. 

I’m scared.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.